The Others 

I read back through my blog posts and laugh sometimes at the nicknames I gave some of these guys. It also makes me wonder what the HELL I was thinking dating more than a few of these douchecanoes. I chalk it up to being lonely and not wanting to die alone (I am completely serious when I say that). The diagnosis of MS came two years ago next month. I was living in Detroit, 1700 miles away from my lifelong friends (my love being one of those) and family. I kept it from most everyone until a few months ago. Everyone is so supportive. Now the running joke is “Remember all those times you just thought I was clumsy as hell and you laughed at me? Well now we know I had MS and you should feel terrible for laughing at me!!!”. My friends and family don’t think it’s as funny as I do, but it’s my way of dealing with this, but I digress… 

Let’s get to the others and where they are today:

Country Boy- After I broke it off he ended up marrying another woman four months later. She hates me and I’m cool with that. Bullet dodged…. no wait, missile dodged with that one.

Secret Agent- Never heard from or contacted him again. He’s probably off doing secret agent shit.

The Ex-Husband- Once I got a serious boyfriend he started acting up, trying to modify our divorce decree. We talked. It’s all working out for the best. I’m truly over him and that’s the best feeling in the World.

Crazy Ex Girlfriend- I wrote him a “Goodbye” email and blocked him everywhere. Good riddance!
The Murse. This guy is so goddamned boring that all I can type is this sentence. I didn’t edit this from my previous post at all because it is still applicable. He’s blocked.
The Attorney- Blocked. 

The Nerd- This guy is still my Facebook friend. He’s in a serious relationship. When I made my relationship Facebook Official he messaged me asking why I didn’t like him. Seriously? He blew me off. Enough said!

Creepy Cop- Never spoke again.

Veteran Cop- Never spoke again.

Cheer Dad- This guy unfriended me on Facebook after sending me a nasty text message accusing me of “using” him. I responded by sending him this: 

Nothing. That’s the response he deserved! Blocked!

My life is so much easier now that I’m not dealing with dating. My relationship is healthy, fulfilling and full of love. 

Goodbye, dating apps. I won’t miss you one bit.

-THAT Crazy Girl 


All Is Well With My Soul

I look back on my Facebook timeline and see no sparkle in my eyes (unless I was with the kids). 2010-2013 was just a blur for me. There’s such sadness and pain in my photos. My eyes say it all. I look at my eyes now and they light up a room. I have the right friends in my life, the right people, the right mindset and the right love. I’ve come such a long way from the person I was years ago. My happiness is visible. My eyes are sparkling. If you’re in a place where your eyes aren’t sparkling and your heart is broken, put yourself first. I mean it! Do what it takes to heal your soul. I moved across the country. I took risks. I believed in myself with the greatest family and friends cheering me on. I cleaned my “friend” house and removed people who were stealing my joy. I forgave, even when I didn’t want to. I pampered myself. I read books that inspired me. I made new friends who accepted me. I became a better mother by doing these things. I became a better friend, sister and daughter. Most of all, I gave myself permission to love with abandon. I’ve fallen in love with a man who was a best friend first. I look back at those old photos and am proud of myself. I did it! I picked myself up, dusted myself off and am genuinely happy. All is well with my soul.

Falling Off The Face of The Earth 


I can’t believe it’s been almost a year since my last post. I’ve kept up with you all via email, but I’ve not been compelled to write until now. My life has been a whirlwind of change, color, love, loss and growth in the past ten months. 

I’m in a beautiful, loving relationship with the man I plan to marry this year. We graduated from high school together 30 years ago and were friends all of this time. He always wanted more, but neither of us knew that until last year. One day we were watching football having a beer and the next day we were kissing until our toes curled. It’s very easy to fall in love with one of your closest friends, but you learn things so intimately about a person you thought you knew so well that it blows your mind. We both know that we couldn’t have been together this way before now. We had to heal, learn and grow into the two people we are today. 

I’ve had one child fly the coop. He’s now a proud Airman 1st Class in the USAF. I’ve watched my son go from a boy to a man since last August. I couldn’t be prouder of his choice to serve our country in Security Forces to uphold the law for the next six years.

My daughter is now a teenager. Anyone who says that 13 isn’t different from 12 is a goddamned liar. I find myself listening to her from the inside out, knowing that I said EXACTLY the same things to my mother 35 years ago. It is terrifying.

I come back to you all a happier, healthier (by 20 pounds!) more hopeful me.